BASIC ASTRONOMY

The Earth/Moon System

In reality from where I stand/exist/experience/perceive as a sentient being, we/Earth spin, so it appears the Moon moves around us quickly through the day and then disappears in a quick orbit, but it us/Earth that spins around completely once during the course of our 24ish hours, giving the appearance that it is the Moon that orbits around us/Earth, when in fact the Moon actually takes 29.53 days to orbit around us/Earth.

The Sun provides a similar appearance of going around the Earth in 24ish hours, but we/Earth orbit the sun in 365ish days, and it is our 24ish hours of spinning that creates the perception of the sun orbiting.

Funny that the center of the universe was considered for millenia to be Earth.

We had to expand our conception, reshift our perception of center, develop new tools, then realize there is no center of the universe....

...and now we realize that the pin-point prick seed of our consciousness is the center of the universe, of understanding.

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There are many instances where people go out and intentionally become hiv positive so they can love and be loved. it is a sick and twisted world we live in, that circumstances have developed in such a way that someone would opt for something ostensibly self destructive to satisfy subconscious desires, even when that very thing believed to be self-destructive may not actually even be so. AAAAAAHHHH! .... but intuitively we all know that disease and contagion and social circumstance and race and gender and whatever else mean absolutely nothing in the spiritual and cosmological scheme of reality and the timeless universe. everybody just fights that intuition all the time with illusions.

i just think about medieval times or tribal cultures, where disease and death is a fact of daily life that is not denied, but rather accepted and understood. No, people may not live as long, but they live more fully and don't run around scared of everything, bound in a realm of scripted beliefs that often are intended to scare or sell. They love, they fuck, they die. passion is the rule.

and all this crap that religion spews on us is a bunch of bullshit. "right" behavior etc. morals. it is all a joke. after having been away from America so long, I see the Americans, my parents and friends, trapped in the silliest little peculiarities of social and moral comportment that seem completely insignificant. Like porn. Who gives a fuck?!???!??! people stick their goddamn cocks into pussies and asses! so what?! why can't it be recorded and shown? I also understand, but do not see, the silly little moral peculiarities that I have taken on that exist here.

THESE NEW FLOURESCENT BULBS ARE BAD

NPR : CFL Bulbs Have One Hitch: Toxic Mercury

Not only do they give off a horrendous light and RUIN the atmosphere of any room, but they contain toxic mercury, which is a neurotoxin that cannot be properly recycled. Have fun with that, everyone, as your brain fries because your lightbulb busted open in your trash. (and got into MY drinking water source)

DO NOT PURCHASE THESE BULBS! Simply use incandescent bulbs to light your home. The old fashioned ones! Your house doesn't have to be lit up like Times Square every night. If a restaurant has these new CFL bulbs, I cannot eat there. It ruins the experience for me.

Candles and incandescents are so much better to live, eat, play, and work under!

CIRCUMCISION

Gay News From 365Gay.com

Now NYC Public Health is jumping on the circumcision bandwagon. I FUCKING HATE THIS! This is insulting. Yes, there remains a choice to NOT be circumcised but who in their right mind would DARE GO AGAINST OUR ESTEEMED MEDICAL ESTABLISHMENT?

I'm certain the uncircumsized Germans will quickly follow suit since they worship science and reason even more than Americans do.

Would it be too radical to say that this is simply medicine propagating itself by mandating yet another procedure that makes someone money somewhere, not to mention but further disconnecting men from their bodies?

DRUGS ARE IN THE WATER

Water Pollution - Drugs and Household Products in the Water Supply - Does It Matter? - New York Times
Well, isn't this just fantastic! I'm really happy about this! This is so great!

We are truly helpless. This is why people get religion. Makes me wanna get some too - to help relieve my fear that I will turn into a chemically-distorted monster.

We are all truly one.

If I take this drug, you'll be taking it too. I'll piss some out - the molecules don't disappear. So will the fish - they'll take it too. You eat the fish, the plants eat the fish, the bacteria eat the plants , we eat the bacteria, they eat us, the cows eat the plants, we eat the cows, the cows drink the water.

One.

CIRCUMCISION

WHO: Male Circumcision Could Cut HIV Infection - Science News - Playfuls.com - Science & Technology

This is such BULLSHIT. Circumcision is completely unnecessary - I don't care what the fuck the World Health Organization says! Now they're just going to go into Africa, impose all their fucking western medical bullshit onto Africa, mandate it through laws based in "science" (the irrevocable contemporary God of truth) that EVERY male undergo circumcision.

Why not provide proper nutrition and water and see if AIDS in Africa is still such a huge problem, instead of dangerous surgeries?

I am completely against circumcision. It is the first act of violence a man experiences. If you clean yourself daily, you're FINE. I think it creates more self-respect and self-knowledge for men when they have to stop and take the time to gently care for such a delicate aspect of their physicality. It builds a connection to their bodies and fosters self-respect, gentleness, and respect for others.

And it gets people to take a shower.

POOR LADY

BBC NEWS | World | South Asia | Pakistan 'brothel woman' released

How sad that she has to accommodate her country's morals instead of her own, which are in reality much more nurturing to her community than the criminalization of her actions and prostitution.

AMERICAN FAGGOTRY

NoMarriage.com - Only marry foreign women.

omigod - so so true! That's really a big reason why I'm "gay." Seriously! I have always been so repelled by most American girls, especially the blond, white New Trier types with shrill-ass voices. Totally asexual. Hence relationships with Bengalis (S___), French (C___), and Australian (A___), and non-white American girls (J___). There are of course American exceptions. L___ is bisexual and masculine, which American chicks wouldn't dare consider over effecting a "Princess" stance. Divas are so much more interesting. I used to always tell my friend Andreas that if I had grown up in Germany I wouldn't have developed into and been assigned, the stupid identity of "gay" which, in relation to American women, is one of the only options for non-hyper-masculine dudes (like myself) who have no interest in pandering to the entitlement that American chicks demand and playing sports. Since a man can have another orgasm with another man, it works, sufficiently, and can be considered a lifestyle choice. But then of course, a soul with which one falls in love has no gender.

"NOW THAT LYNCHING IS FROWNED UPON, WE'VE MOVED ON TO THE ELECTRIC CHAIR"

That quote is from the venerable Ani DiFranco.

look at this article!:

http://www.theregister.co.uk/2006/02/15/lethal_injection_ruling/

FEEL THE LATEST FEAR

oh my god. fucking run for your life. oh my god. get whipped up into a panicked frenzy. get real scared of something. oh lord help us. we're all gonna die. oh my god. oh my god. i just don't know what to do. oh my. we're all gonna die. oh my god. disaster. tragedy. terror. hysterics. enemies. viruses. them. us. other. outside. external. not internal. us. I. they. something else. disruptions. impurities. soiling enitities. safe. safe. safe.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/4292426.stm

PUPPETS/PHOENIX

so I don't think i ever talked about this because my mother asked me not to because it's been really upsetting to everyone in the family (except me and my brothers), but her brother with parkinson's disease has over the past two years become a complete sex addict. can you fucking believe it?!?! he has spent all his disability money and the money my grandmother gives him on phone sex lines, and would drive himself to strip clubs. they took the car keys away, so he started stealing bikes and would pedal himself across town to go to fucking sex clubs. i just can't imagine what it is like to see someone with parkinson's disease in total spasms trying to get through rush hour traffic in order to go fuck strippers. my grandmother said that his new girlfriend has turned him into a sex fiend and she is TOTALLY beside herself with disgust. my mother is totally disturbed. i just keep saying "well at least he's doing something for himself! good for him for trying to get a little happiness." the whole situation is RIDICULOUS and really unbelievable. the whole thing is WACKO.

BUT THEN IN THE NEWS YESTERDAY IT WAS ANNOUNCED THAT A DRUG THAT PEOPLE WITH PARKINSON'S DISEASE TAKE IS TURNING PEOPLE INTO COMPULSIVE GAMBLERS, ALCOHOLICS, AND SEX ADDICTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can you FUCKING BELIEVE IT ?!??!?!?!?!

http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2005/07/0712_050712_parkinsons.html


this whole moral dilemma in my family was iatrogenically induced.

the world is SO FUCKED UP. I feel so sorry for my uncle having to reconcile his chaste christian beliefs with these uncontrollable sex urges. must have been quite an internal torment for such a good Christian. He's one of those people that says "God made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve." I hope he has the strength and reason to take care of himself instead of being a puppet. i hope with the revelation of this news he feels like he has been a helpless puppet trapped in a hideous world and takes some goddamn control for himself. I wonder if he'll have a complete breakdown, freak out, and then heal himself completely!

LEAVING

I'm very glad I'm leaving San Francisco - it's suffocating and small and although diverse and liberal, quite provincial. It's time for more. I also hope to visit Scandinavia and other countries where faggots are wholly integrated into the culture just to see what it ACTUALLY feels like. I can't really imagine!! It's very bad for my health to have to try to become a man in a society that hates me. That's probably what causes AIDS, really: the psychological double bind of actively participating in a culture that oppresses me through institutions, medicalized fascism, and general stupid stupid hatred and fear is actively participating in my own suicide.

Things are better in Germany. Things are also "better" in San Francisco, but San Francisco is simply a ghetto for liberals and gays surrounded by a country of asshole fuckface morons who vote for Bush and support institutionalized discrimination, war, imperialism, and murder. In a ghetto or marginalized situation like this, self-created or not, they are given the illusion of freedom and being able to live one's life fully, yet they wander around wanting more and when they try to do that by leaving the ghetto, the margin, either physically, psychologically, or culturally, they are brutally reminded that they are not safe and might be violated, so they rush back to the margins, back to the ghetto. This ,aSan Francisco is the ultimate ghetto for sexual "deviants." They run around drunk or spun on speed like teenagers from bar to bar, flitting from culturally unverifiable and emotionally unstable relationship to another, from stupid job to stupid job, from anonymous city to anonymous city because they SIMPLY AREN'T PERMITTED TO LAND. I imagine that in the Netherlands EVERYONE cares for themselves much more than we do here, if we as a culture choose these sorts of behaviors and laws. (mind you, all of this is being said by a spoiled brat able to sell a Saab and just LEAVE.)

SHOPPING IS DEAD

> http://www.liberation.fr/page.php?Article=264019

Now even the press, albeit the French left press, has acknowleged my latest intuitive (and otherwise) proclamation: shopping is totally over. Brands are totally over. Give the television masses a decade or so, maybe a bit more for the new immigrants looking for that commodified American dream, but for the most part, it will be on the decline. This is all of course in direct relation to my most voracious reading of late: No Logo by Naomi Klein.

Hopefully also soon, capital will sift out of the research and development coffers of multinational corporations looking for the most innovative ways to psychologically present their useless products and into more pockets of more people in this world, in a more equitable distribution.

I recently met a girl whose job was to develop a tear-resistant Glad trash bag. It would just be a few dollars more than a regular Glad trash bag. Glad was spending millions of dollars on this trash bag development project. The girl just bought a $985,000 house in Oakland. I think I'll really just double-bag two generic bags that cost one quarter of a Glad bag - especially when after giving me a niftily-wrapped sample package with a single bag inside of it, she then watched me push my finger right through the plastic of her new, tear-resistant bag.

IRAQ

Could someone please tell me why the United States has any reason whatsoever to involve itself in the elections of another country, of another people? Thanks. I appreciate it.

This occupation in order to "spread freedom," as Condoleeza Rice stated after being sworn in as the new Secretary of State, has and will always remain an oppressive form of colonization and imperialism. This spreading of freedom is more like a spreading of pizza sauce. As a reminder, freedom cannot be given to anyone, it must be taken. The people of the world will have to come to terms with this state of freedom that is being imposed upon them and realize for themselves that this freedom is a lie. They are simply being subjected to an ideological imperialism scripted by those in power in order to reserve further power. Is this not completely obvious to most of the world now? Is this simply about money and material resource, or has the Unites States sought to obliterate other ways of conceptualizing how lives might be lived? There really is no such thing as a democracy. We see that every day in the United States. The government of the United States has become the militia for the dollars of multinational corporations.

I'm going to stop, because these ideas are so unoriginal. Repeating them over and over is having no effect.

What are these assholes doing?

PEOPLE STILL AREN'T GETTING THE POINT

Read this article:

http://www.gnn.tv/articles/article.php?id=1011

Yes, the United States is testing drugs on Africans, all under the guise of "combatting the African AIDS epidemic." It is murder and we are guilty. YOU are guilty.

And for all you faggots with AIDS: Stop taking the toxic shit they push on you for profit, you dumbfuck. It's gross and stupid. You look like deformed monkeys scurrying about the gay ghettos of this country, smiling your little smiles that never fully conceal the fear of your death. Wouldn't you rather be dead? You are a vast medical experiment in the machine of capitalist profit. Do you really believe that you've no other choice? Get this: you have a choice. You have many fucking choices. Think about it. Really.

You want me to speak my fucking mind, I will. I'm sick of not speaking my mind for fear of ostracization or expulsion or friends turning against me or imprisonment. And yes, I do feel the situation is THAT grave: when a system is in place, the system works to ensure that the system is infallible. Any exceptions or discrepancies are ousted when the sanctity of that system is threatened. Do we compromise personal liberty for the salvation of the public health? Yes we do. WE quarantine and jail them. We make the mothers give their babies drugs against the will. The body has become the territory of the State in this respect. Inflictions upon the body from without, in the form of questionnaires, injections, extractions, have left the membranes and pulses of our flesh to the vagaries of popular and political trend. Up for grabs in a game of medical fascism, our bodies are. Completely up for grabs.

The way we even think, the way we conceptualize, is molded around the agendas of pharmaceutical corporations. It is they who are presently scripting the language in which we are able to even express ourselves. There are of course hopeful exceptions, but there seems to have developed a double-speak that gallops alongside our everyday American English that nips away at our thoughts, co-opting them so that words like "procedure," "administration," control group," benefits," syndrome," condition," bioengineered" latch on in just such a way that our capacities to express ourselves via any other means are slowly being altered. They may eventually be taken away from us entirely. When entire medical conditions are AUTHORED by pharmaceutical corporations looking for a market for their latest pill, then the syndrome/condition/disease/whathaveyou LEGITIMIZED through proper medical processes and validations such as esteemed researchers on salary, or through an article in a medical journal that can only exist due to the money given to it by pharmaceutical corporations for advertisements, the language begins to change. The ways of thinking begin to change. The ways of conceptualising existence begin to change. Other ways of expression are forgotten. I can no longer "feel a little blue today." Rather now, I am suffering from the newest acronym that can be cured by a particular pill touted in the TV commercial that told me about the acronym, so I do like they tell me to do, and I run run run to my doctor to ask him about it today, then he gives me a prescription for it - and look! I've been supplied with the demand by the suppliers who demand.


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Do we really test medications on Africans for money? That's not possible! That's HORRIBLE TO SAY!! We do it because we want the world to be a better place! We want to help people!!!!!!!!!!!

BULLSHIT. If that were true, every single medicine would be FREE.

(Just so you know, I am DISGUSTED by this bit of reality. It makes me SO ANGRY.)

ON CELEBRITY POLITICS

Why must a political candidate have an image? Why must all political leadership happen through the realm of television presentation? I do not not care what the president looks like, what he says, or who he fucks. I do not care what myth he creates, to which nationalist sentiments he appeals, or to which emotions he enlists as his soldiers towards reelection.

I simply care what actions he takes as political officer and whether or not his actions are in line with my beliefs. I don't care what party, what race, what national origin, what sexuality, what sex, what anything - all of those are irrelevant.

I wish politicians would stop speaking for one goddamn second and actually take action towards constructively changing our national institutions so they protect and support each citizen equally. As things are now, politicians are only concerned with what they say and how they appear, not actually what political actions they take.

I will vote for you if your actions and platform are in line with my morality.

NEVER GET VACCINATED, EVER, FOR ANYTHING. YOU CAN'T RUN FROM DEATH. WELCOME IT.

The New York Times > Health > A Big Maker of Flu Shots Finds Some Contaminated

Don't introduce ANYTHING foreign into your bloodstream, especially something manufactured by a huge corporation who is SIMPLY IN IT FOR MONEY. They have a failsafe ideology backing their product: the legitimizing force of medical science and the blind faith of the modern world in it, they profit from your fear of death. They either build upon or create myths that sustain belief in need for their product. Stop being scared of death! Don't vaccinate, ever. DIE! JUST FUCKING DIE! It'll be fun!

BOYCOTT STATE MARRIAGE!

State high court invalidates SF's same-sex marriages / By 5-2 vote, justices rule against Newsom, say mayor went too far

See! If we continually require the government to get involved in personal relationships and to validate them through its institutions of inequity, then we will be continually fucked!!! ALL PEOPLE - GAY AND STRAIGHT - MUST NOT PARTICIPATE IN STATE-SANCTIONED MARRIAGE!!! The insitution and its privileges discriminate against people that choose to remain single or who choose to be with more than one person! Just because homosexuals choose to imitate procreative heterosexual couples should not be a reason to bestow privileges such as tax breaks and access to health care and other benefits. It's completely unfair!!!!!!!! The institution is a relic of procreative, Christian governments and needs to be abolished!

Now, having a committment ceremony in front of friends family and community is one thing, but involving the state is OPPRESSIVE.

Catch my drift?

ON MEDICALIZED OPPRESSION

The New York Times > National > Patients With H.I.V. Seen as Separated by a Racial Divide

The linked article above reports on how people with African ethnic origin are much more likely to test positive for HIV than other ethnic groups. Read it. Unfortunately, considering the state of the world today, it is only natural that the medical syndrome authored by the U.S. government disproportionately affects minorities. Of course it does! AIDS is the perfect shadow of the white, heterosexual, non-drug using Christian monolith that rules the world.

Of course black men have AIDS!
Of course they're being diagnosed as terminal with the authored syndrome!
Of course the most feared constituency of the American populace is the one most AIDS-like!
Of course there's a corroboration!

Status quo must be maintained, via all channels available to us.

Of course the actual science of the HIV testing kits is overlooked: that antigens more common in the blood of those with origins in Africa that are known to trigger diagnostic interpretations as positive. (reference) Of course these facts are in wide disregard, as these facts do not reinscribe the dominant modes of discourse that maintain the hegemony of the status quo...and the status quo is to scapegoat black men. (let's be honest with ourselves, really.)

Do not stand there and take racist/heterosexist oppression in the form of medical science. Simply because most of our knowledge and beliefs today are mediated through the legitimating practices of science should not give reason to legitimate your oppression as it is played out in the arena of medicine and the religion of science.

Do not place faith in something as it simultaneously oppresses you, or you shall in turn, be oppressing yourself, even if that thing is the very thing that made you who you are and shaped your beliefs. Oppression can only happen if one permits it to happen by placing credence and participating in the systems and paradigms that oppress you.

ON RULING THE WORLD USING VIOLENCE AND DESTRUCTION

The New York Times > Washington > Rice Says Iran Must Not Be Allowed to Develop Nuclear Arms

But of course the United States is allowed to develop nuclear weapons.

The United States can do whatever the FUCK IT WANTS. It can build as many weapons of mass destruction as it fucking likes, as long as it has that sense of being in control, which is motivated by fear and ultimately is an illusion. Why must we kill? Why must we control?

CHANGE YOUR MIND, AMERICA!

BARACK OBAMA AND WHITE POWER

The New York Times > Washington > Campaign 2004 > Keyes vs. Obama in Illinois Race

The only reason Barack Obama is popular is because he is highly palatable to white people. Popular, because it is white people that make up the majority of the populous.

He is not the "real American nigger" that always makes whites in power uncomfortable. He is an acceptable form of African-American, since he really isn't African-American as America has come to know it. He does not threaten any of the ideologies in question that maintain the institutions of power that are for and benefit white rich people.

I'd like to see a dark-as-night, corn-rowed nigga from da block step forward, full in his ghetto glory, lead the American people in only ways that he can. It's time. I'm completely serious. Perhaps now that Obama has somewhat brought to light and tempered

Prison can't kill notorious student-teacher affair

Prison can't kill notorious student-teacher affair - World - www.smh.com.au

I love this. Completely going against social and cultural convention, the teacher falls in love with her sixth grade student, has two of his children, and gets thrown in prison for fucking him.

I think it's perverse and that's why I like it. Perversion shows us our social limits an challenges our personal boundaries. The authority of law has no business meddling in the personal lives of citizens. Legality cannot enforce morality, as that which is considered moral is continually shifts and changes in dynamic culture, especially one as heterogeneous as that of the United States.

I wonder to what degree cultural difference permitted the boy with a Pacific Island background to pursue a relationship with his teacher. Did he tell his mother about it? Did she care? She's taking care of their children while the mother is in prison - why?

It's a shame that laws are set up to protect and thusly ENFORCE a particular mind set or way of thinking. Herein lies the myth of Freedom, ESPECIALLY that myth of American Freedom that has been constructed and enforced to maintain hegemony by white, male, heterosexual, corporate interests and to reify them into an ideal-to-be-attained.

And YES, we do hear that ALL THE TIME - that particular consituency of our population "oppresses and dominates everyone else" but it must be accepted that this is indeed true!!!!!! If it weren't true, it wouldn't have become such a considerable trope for our age. Every institution and legal mechanism has been built to maintain, privilege, and enforce that world order, and that world order is simply not fair. The institutions that function to serve people must serve them equally. I hope it is understood and FELT that this is true and that they do not.

Love and human connection is one of those beautiful things that can transcend everything - laws, distance, age, physicality, science, morality - and for that we must humbly give thanks. I gain great personal strength from knowing this and have claimed it as one of my truths.

If I fell in love with a twelve year old - and it is possible - would you punish me or would you understand me?

IRAQI SOVEREIGNTY MY ASS

IRAQI SOVEREIGNTY MY ASS

Yahoo! News Full Coverage - World - U.S. Transfers Sovereignty to Iraqi Govt.

FREEDOM CANNOT BE GIVEN. IT MUST BE TAKEN.

Gee, everyone's all happy that the Almighty USA has decided to hand back sovereignty to Iraq. What a bunch of bullshit. I'll believe it when I see it. And what's up with the pussy Iraqis that stand for being "handed back their country?" There must be a highly compliant, pussy indigenous elite that would take it up the ass any which way the USA wanted.

The USA still owns Iraq. Do not believe otherwise. Do not let your United
Statian conscience be cleared by a simple announcement propagated by the Bush administration and advertised by the New York Times. Don't feel relieved - you are still responsible, you citizen of the USA. Do not
applaud the civil behaviors of a compassionate Bush. There have been no such behaviors. Do not think the war is over and the occupation is
done. They are not. There cannot be rejoicing for an ostensive execution of your liberal desires by G Dubya.

The new Iraqi government was hand-picked by the USA - no doubt a group of ass-licking indigenous elite puppets with G Dubya's hand so far up its Iraqi
ass that Jim Henson's turning over in his grave with envy. The troops of the USA are still there, aren't they?

And the USA is still buyin' up all that crude.

Freedom cannot be given. It must be taken. To have someone give you sovereignty is to permit them to completely rule you and enslave you, on
their terms, on the terms of the oppressor.

Do not believe the lies. Iraq is no sovereign nation.

MANDATORY AIDS TESTING

MANDATORY AIDS TESTING

It's like watching an episode of the Twilght Zone. It's a psychological horror story of the most intense disturbance from the inside, out. The mass hysteria (1) required to produce and sustain the collective phenomena known as AIDS are working like clockwork. The mechanisms and structures in place that maintain the hysteria have been carefully architected by the modern mind and its pursuits of order via Christianity's successor, scientific rationalism and the medicalization of the world. Only recently has postmodern insight permitted the self-reflexivity necessary to excavate the structures of our belief systems and expose them for the fabrications of haphazard meanings that they are, yet the tethers of modernity still manage to limit the movement necessary for true critical analysis.

1) See Sigmund Freud Beyond the Pleasure Principle

ADVERTISING AND NEED

The callow triumph of advertising has been to create myths of need. Reconfiguring modes of thinking in such ways that what was once previously unthought becomes thought, creating new needs.

We do not need anything that we do not know that we need. There are no exceptions to this rule.

When a salesman or advertisements informs you that you need something, they are wrong. The truth is that we don't really NEED ANYTHING besides food, water, and shelter, but that simplicity has been trumped by myths of consumption and progress, so forget about that. (to be continued)

NOTHING IS ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING

We create entire realities based on apprehension, assignation, and retention of meaningless things (I can't think of a better word for meaningless things - I'm sure there's one in German) into meaningless systems that have created the meaningless us and meaningless world-as-we-know-it. Of course, these realities are NOT meaningless, because they are what create society and self and the world-as-we-know-it and goddammit, we can't mean nothing, can we? I mean something, don't I? Gosh golly gee. If I don't, then I'll kill myself so I can stop thinking about it.

The accumulation of crap (maybe that's a better word) and the organization of crap into knowable objects of understanding is a neverending cycle stemming from and based in the continually solipsistic mish-mash of signs and signifiers and blah blah blah blah blah blab blab bakl bakjsdbkafubiluerfhier7gh

MORE ON PEACHY KEEN MORALITY

The premise, style, acting, and direction of film 'The Girl Next Door' makes me want to vomit red, white, and blue shreds of fabric.

Tight-wad, do-good high-schooler falls in love with his new next door neighbor who turns out to be a porn star, turning his pristine world upside down. He eventually comes around to "loosen up" a bit, and she rediscovers her innocence in the sweet nerd.

So let's see: In the form of porn-star girl, America is presented with a challenge to its anti-porn conservatism. However, America, who has no other option but to relate to the protagonist in this particular cookie-cutter literary format, through a series of cutesy and humanizing (and ultimately universalising) anecdotes and pat affirmations of its moral code, eventually comes 'round, its morality stretched just so to now include and embrace porn stars. "they're just people after all" And the porn star is reassigned a state of grace, despite her previous fall from it.

"Boy, let me tell you, I was really put through the moral wringer. I was made so uncomfortable by this. Eeeew. She's a porn star. But in the end, I came 'round and I too could love a porn star. After all, it's just a girl."

The limited continuum of moral parameters within which this story can effectively happen is my concern here. There are actually people in this world somewhere who could care less about porn stars being a "hush hush topic" and might just simply not understand the HIGH STAKES this character is going through. And that these "high stakes" are completely framed within a secular Christian dialectic of salvation and redemption further illustrates the shallow and extremely specific group of viewers that may be effectively impressed by such a film.

But I should stop because I haven't yet seen the film.

THE CONFLAGRATION OF ENTERTAINMENT AND ADVERTISEMENT

LINK TO ARTICLE

Susanne Somers, under the guise of authorship, has decided to venture into pharmaceutical sales. The manipulation of the popular mind into taking this as anything other than an advertisement for "bioidentical hormones" quite possibly may be one of the most blatant uses of contemporary black magic.

THE MECHANISMS OF MORALITY or GLIMPSES OF THE NIP

Yahoo! News - Wal-Mart Sells Anti-Smut DVD Player

Read the above article and then come back to this page.

I am distressed about the state of "moral affairs" in this country. That people would go to such great lengths as purchase technologies that seek to eliminate any inappropriate imagery or language from entering their personal spheres and thusly, the attendant feelings of discomfort due to perceived infringements on the particular set of selected or inherited morals with which people have claimed as their own and equate with their entire identity, is a disturbing reality.

I cannot endure living for much longer in this culture of shame and psychological complexes that motivate the pixellating of nipples and the covering up of penises and the censoring of voices. It is crippling, even to me with my angry voice of neo-liberal rebellious finger-pointing, to have to giggle uncomfortably when we see something we "shouldn't have seen" and a great waste of time, frankly. Why do we giggle uncomfortably? It's a BREAST.

This failure to address the mechanisms of morality that set us up to perceive pain and to take offense perpetuates this completely ridiculous cycle of set-up-this-moral-code to have it-be-threatened-by-this-breach-of-its-sacredness. We need to ask why and how. Once we understand the why and how the mechanism works, we can then step outside of its conditioning.

WHY does that nipple need to be covered up?

Is it because we in actuality really really really want to see it so so so badly because it stirs in us powerful emotions that we don't get to feel?  Is there a psychoanalytical analysis to be made? (of course)

But then isn't the reason why it stirs up powerful emotions that we don't often feel (and we lust after glimpses of the nip) precisely BECAUSE they're usually covered up?

What if nipples were never covered up?! Would they lose all their power as objects of desire? Would their meaning as objects which lustful tongues desire to lap disappear?  Absolutely.

Why keep things hidden? So we can discover them over and over again in a titillating game of eternal hide-and-go-seek with ourselves?

What a waste of time.

Check your mechanism.

And do not shop at Wal-Mart.

NEOCOLONIALISM IN THE FORM OF CONTEMPORARY RELIEF EFFORTS

Not only is colonialism still around, but the mind that colonizes is still completely operational. It sickens me to see the level of exploitation of other cultures and countries carried out under the guise of "aid" and "help" and correction by the first world and the West. When will we cease to impose our models of existence, our moralities onto the others on this planet? Modern medicine has succeeded in organizing the health of the poor intoits explicit categories and all is done in a completely Eurocentrist condescension towards any other world view.

We still believe we're superior! It's ridiculous! Simply because we claim science as our truth and justification. The concept of cultural superiority may not even be present in the minds of the Others. Not everyone believes that death and illness are horrible things - why must we presume they do? UGH.

Get the FUCK OUT OF AFRICA, you missionary instruments of empire.

why have we shifted labor resources from actually washing people to abstracted technologies? Those whose labor would have actually been the washing of the elderly now count as their labor the contruction of technologies and programming of computers that wash the elderly. What gives?!?! There is only a finite amount of labor energy available on this planet - why has it shifted to machine construction? Time has not been saved! People are not more productive! They just pend time doing other things, like pressing buttons instead.

Japan Seeks Robotic Help in Caring for the Aged

DEATH AND SLAVERY

The only way to avoid slavery and death while alive is to be a creator. The man, nor his institutions, can not trap the liberties of spirit as expressed creatively.

May we all find this route. Soon. Please.

PROGNOSIS: TERMINAL

There must be a serious reconsideration of a particular practice in the field of medicine. Prognoses on the part of medical physicians as to the remaining duration of a patient's life MUST be eliminated from the clinical vocabulary.

No, you as an extremely educated person in the areas of biology, disease, and healing, despite your experience, varied studies, and years on this Earth, do not know for how long a patient will remain alive or what will happen next. You do not even have the luxury of an estimation. You simply DO NOT KNOW.

The phrases "I don't know" or "I am not sure" are rarely heard coming from the throats of the physician. If they are, the patient should be honored to be in the medical care of such a person. For a physician to admit not knowing or uncertainty about a medical condition to the very person whose well-being ostensibly resides in the authority placed in the physician's word is a brave and commendable act. For a patient, to be left dangling above the gaping jaws of destiny is temporarily extremely unsettling and destabilizing, but ultimately is much more satisfying and certain than thinking one is plunging into them.

Patients, do not deceive yourself. Do not deprive yourself of truth by placing it outside of yourself and your Knowledge. Only God knows. Remember that.

Physicians, if you have not already, step down from the podium of telling people when they might die. It is truly abominable to abuse the power that has been placed onto your profession by the secularisation of spirit into the positivism of science. This power is false and extremely temporary. Be honest.

I hit a dog on the freeway.

It was scary. I couldn't move because there were cars around me. I think. And I didn't want to fly off into the the ditch and flip the car.

It was a big dog. It was wild. There were two of them. I honked. He heard me too late. I tried to swerve in between the two of them, but no.

And then I pulled over and I couldn't find the dog anywhere, nor was there any evidence of anything on the front of my car.

It felt like I hit a wet log and then drove over it.

It was horrible. I gave a good scream as it happened. I shook for a few minutes.

no prose here, just jostle-y bits of thought as they reconcile themselves with the event.

THE DA VINCI CODE

Please force-feed me your rehashing of contemporary historical analysis of the questing of the Holy Grail, Dan Brown. Please mold the esoteric knowledge of secret orders and obscure theoretical discourse into a palatable movie for me to consume in a hungry state of suspense, Dan Brown.

Oh god, Dan Brown, please poke at my hole with your phallus of weltanschauung-shattering suppositions. Oh god, Dan Brown, lest not my entire identity, forged as it has been in this Christian world, be erased in your fogs of disillusionment!!

Oh god, what I believe - is it actually not true?!?! GASP! Au secours! Au secours!

or

Oh my god, we've been lied to the whole time!

or

Should I take the blue pill or the red pill?

or

How to turn a movie into a novel without having actually written the movie.


And I'm sorry, the characters were hardly characters, merely devices to move the plot forward. Disgustingly flat. Disgustingly.

That said, I sat at the edge of my seat the whole way through, wondering why they cast Angelina Jolie instead of Charlize Theron. And Mark Wahlberg instead of Paul Walker.

MODERN BIRTH

MODERN BIRTH

Can we please eliminate the question "When is your baby due?" from our lives? No one knows the answer to this question.

Then, as a result of an approximation, a baby is either "late" or "early," depending on the occurrence of the actual birth event.

It's a stupid way of talking about it all. Babies are never EARLY or LATE. They come out exactly when they're supposed to.

I feel like we have to continually extract ourselves from the limits of science. Through science and medicine, we often place such strict and confining limitations on ourselves and what we believe is actually possible or will happen. It's bullshit, because we never EVER do.

We only have clever little approximations.

ON PRIVACY

I think we need to reconsider the notion of 'privacy.'

Why, why, why have we grown to a place where there are things that bring us shame? This inherited pain, completely based in fear and judgement, is continually stifling the efforts of the world. Why are there things that we could absolutely never let our mothers discover for fear of being chastized or otherwise negatively treated? For example: What to do if your Mom discovers your blog...

I want to let go of all things that I feel I need to hide from other people - thoughts, habits, desires, movements - everything. Wouldn't that be grand? Embarrassment, guilt, shame: please evacuate the premises.

We feel ashamed, embarrassed, or guilty for that which we would shame, criticize, or accuse in others.

For example:

"Oh god, I can't shit just yet because there are still people at the urinal and they might hear the flapping flatulence of my sphincter and the sloshing of my shit or the spraying of my diarrhea. Heaven forbid!*"

- I only think this because when I hear the above phenomenon occurring while standing at a urinal, I think to myself "oh my! poor guy!" and just want to start laughing. ..but why poor guy? Why so bad? Why such need to privatize the functions of the body? Sex, shit, etc.? The confluence of space organizing and separating architecture and Christian values of purity/cleanliness affirm this fear, as do science and germ theory, both Western transpositions of those Christian values.

* Heaven forbids a lot of stuff and is therefore the source of a lot of stuff. Check yourself, everyone for relics of religion-induced guilt, shame, and embarrassment. Most of it comes from there, even if you're not religious at all - we live in a world where most values have been shaped by religious doctrine.